So after finishing Masters (for good hopefully), I've been having mixed emotions about life.
I've started the long process of job hunting after having a 2 week break - could say I was just savouring the last weeks of freedom that I might never experience again once I start working. I've done applications online, been searching for positions, doing some interview prep etc. Surprisingly for myself personally, I'm not stressed at all about finding a job, I'm not really in a difficult position financially as these days I don't really have anything to buy for myself. I get paid peanuts at my part time job just so I can save it or use it to see friends, the boyfriend or buy things that need replacing when they break (i.e. that overly expensive hairdryer). So I feel completely and absolutely fine and in peace about getting a full time job in HR - I know it will come naturally with the amount of jobs I apply for.
But then there's this problem with my mum.
My parents are retired and my mum really wants me and my brother to work ASAP to provide for them. It's an Asian tradition in case anyone is reading this like "they want you to provide for them?? What about yourself???" I guess this is why traditional Asian parents push their children to study something like medicine or law - those high paying jobs so they can provide for them and buy a house for themselves. So even though my mum doesn't directly say to me "why aren't you job hunting?" every time she sees me sat on the sofa watching dramas or on my phone, I kinda feel the pressure of her judging me when I'm not physically doing anything that is related to job hunting. That's where the "stress" is coming from. I can't exactly tell her I believe that a job will naturally come to me with time as she'll perceive it as laziness.
I'm not going to lie though, I really enjoy having my own time everyday like this. I had doubts earlier about whether I am really ready to start taking a full time job. Sometimes I see it, but some other times I just can't imagine myself working yet, I feel like there's something else I need to do before I work.
