Hallo~

Saying hello in Dutch because I recently just came back from Amsterdam!~

Amsterdam was pretty good, it was a nice little holiday for me and the boyf since we've both been stressed out as fuck from work/study (or in my case, work AND study... fml). Was just nice to spend 5 days alone together in a different country, eating, exploring and sleeping. But somewhere deep inside, I felt guilty because losing out on 5 days revision is a very big deal as I have come to realise now. Oops.

Right now my discipline level is sky high, I can't afford to step out of this schedule I planned for myself that takes into account work and revision and things like New Years, Xmas etc. So far I've worked the hardest on xmas day because of worry, when I worry about things like exams, everything else doesn't matter, I work like 1000x harder than I plan to because I hate having sleepless nights worrying about not having enough time to revise. I don't really feel like I can complain to anyone either because it was my choice to go on holiday for 5 days. So far, things are going well, I've had to work around some unexpected last minute things like my parents inviting the boyfriend round for xmas eve dinner, therefore I couldn't revise that day, hence, I had to work 2x harder on xmas day than all other days. I've also got to work around NYE, new years and a friend's birthday too. Luckily, I've taken some weeks off work, finally putting those holiday hours to good use.

Work has been a pain in the ass too, I've been put in the dilemma of choosing between extra hours = more money but less time to study or working less hours = less money and more time to study. Of course I've chosen money because I've had to buy xmas presents, mum's birthday is around the corner and she wants huge presents this year for some reason... It just means I have to cram more study into less time... ugh, life.

Only 2 weeks to go until exam period is over though, I can't believe how quickly time has gone, in 2 weeks I'll have done my semester 1 exams and then I'll be onto the last part of education for good this time. I say this every time but seriously, I cannot take studying any longer!  

Progress is slow

Trying to complete 2 x 2500 word essays at the same time is painful, tiring and stressful.

I keep looking forward to next Sunday because I'll be flying to Amsterdam for 5 days! It's a shame I have a shitload of work to complete before that, I'm literally working up to the day before I leave :( I wish I didn't have work to go to so I could chill with my family before I leave. Working and studying is really tough as I have said before. Especially because it's Christmas season it was really difficult for me to get this break and not have to do overtime at work for a week. But what can I do? I need money for Christmas presents and for the holiday so if I don't work and have my weekends back to relax and do nothing, I get no money... The experience of having no money to spend is worse than going to work when I don't want to, in my opinion and experience. It's hard enough asking for holiday when you're a part timer but it's even harder working till 11pm for the busy season. I don't want to get home by midnight T___T.

I'm just waiting for next week to come so I can relax and do nothing for 5 days. No coursework to think about, no work to go to - just the guilt of being on holiday when I have 4 exams to revise for.

Shit.

Mind fart.

Literally. I'm just making an entry for the sake of making an entry.

I feel like superwoman right now because today I've done nothing but go lecture, do group work, come home, sleep, eat, play LoL, do as much of my essay as possible in just over an hour. I've actually managed to do almost half of my last essay in the space of an hour. I planned to do most of it today because Tuesdays are the days where I actually finish lectures at a decent time, but since I only had like 4 hours of sleep the night before, doing work straight away when I got home was no option. Today was a classic example of (do minimal) work, rest, play.

I've been ill for the past week which sucks because I turned 22 last Sunday with a bit of a cold. In fact, I still have a bit of a cold but it's not as bad as the week of my birthday. My manager gave me my birthday off but I had to call in sick the day before because I just couldn't bear being ill on my birthday. I've recovered to some extent but I still have a blocked nose at random times and a drippy one at other times.

So I've got 1 and a half weeks left of uni before I leave for Amsterdam for 5 days, a much needed break and then I have revision for the next 3 weeks, then exams for 4 days and then it starts all over again with semester 2. My Christmas and New Years is looking fabulousssss. I got my results for my first assignment today, I managed to get distinction somehow which is surprising. I was sure I was going to scrape a pass or something. It's good news.

Not sure what else to throw into this random entry so I'll just end it here. Need to start doing some Xmas online shopping. Bye bye monies :(