Things are... better.

Still not completely fine yet, but on the way to being fine.

I learnt many things yesterday.

• Some things are worth fighting for even though it might seem like they're not at the time.
• Awkward silences are the hardest thing to overcome.
• Sometimes being vulnerable and open about your feelings is the best option.
• Having faith in someone who has hurt you is a big step forward, but is also the first step to recovery.
• Believing in someone who has broken your trust before is a brave thing to do.
• Crying in public is not as embarrassing as it seems when you're wrapped up in your emotions.
• Sunshine can improve your mood for a while.
• Being lied to is hard to get over.
• Silence is hard to break when nobody knows where to begin.
• Staring at the sun is bad for your eyes even if you're wearing sunglasses.
• Sunglasses are the best for when your eyes are red and puffy from crying or when you don't want people to know that you're crying.
• Sometimes wandering around alone is best for when you want to reorganise your thoughts.
• Calling rather than waiting is better when you're unsure. 
• Pinching yourself to stop yourself crying is not a good thing to do.
• Being hugged by the person you thought that stopped caring is the most comforting feeling ever. 

Sometimes when you overthink situations you tend to get carried away by your train of thought and it's not always the best. Although I had my presumptions about yesterday, I was mostly right about the things I presumed about but in the end, any problem can be overcome in a relationship if both are willing to. Being overcome by emotion is easy - anyone can flip out in anger or break down in sadness but having the courage to talk about things and reveal emotions, feelings and thoughts is the way to take things forward. There's nothing wrong with honesty, as long as you're honest with other people, you can be honest with yourself. 

Compromises can be the best solution, an agreement to conditions by both. As long as these promises are kept to, things can move forward back to the way they were. If not then things fall apart again. But in order for compromises to work, you have to have faith, trust and belief in each other... 

Although I don't feel strong enough to have complete faith and trust because I'm scared of being hurt again, I want to try for once and believe that I can have faith... Maybe if I show that I do have faith and belief, things will start to change. If I never have faith, things will never move forward and I won't be happy again. So, really, both of us must change in order for things to get better.